{"id":457,"date":"2023-07-24T08:01:41","date_gmt":"2023-07-24T08:01:41","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.stephaniejaie.com\/?p=457"},"modified":"2023-07-24T08:32:59","modified_gmt":"2023-07-24T08:32:59","slug":"how-the-void-changed-my-life","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.stephaniejaie.com\/how-the-void-changed-my-life\/","title":{"rendered":"How The Void Changed My Life"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
Going through the void was one of the hardest, scariest, and best experiences of my life. And now, on the other side, it’s time for me to share with you exactly what I journeyed, and what it means for me now (spoiler: I found my DHARMA, baby! Keep reading)<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n As many of you know, my father passed away on December 8th. What some of you may not know is that right before he passed I entered the depths of the deepest, darkest void I have ever experienced. <\/p>\n\n\n\n I talked a lot about the process of this void on Instagram (head to @StephaieJaie and click the “lives” highlight, it’s the 2nd one<\/a>) but didn’t go into great detail on the major shifts and transformations that happened during this time. I was still alchemizing and integrating the lessons, but now I feel ready to share with you all. <\/p>\n\n\n\n This void really shook my foundation – everything that I thought was real, solid, and tangible dissolved around me. <\/p>\n\n\n\n The void can look a LOT like depression. And I believe, if we don’t learn the lessons and surrender to the process, this is what it eventually turns into: a long term rejection of our divinity and trapped-ness in the void. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Thankfully for me, once we got to Bangkok the fog started to lift. My body started to heal, my spirit started to heal, and the lessons of these very hard moments in the void started to become clear. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Cian and I had made the decision during my void that eventually I would re-launch the Stephanie Jaie brand as a solo brand (the way it had always been intended). But to be honest I just couldn’t find the fucking energy to do it<\/em>. At this stage writing one blog post took me a week and I needed to sleep for two days afterwards. How was I going to run a business? (and THAT was a whole ego trip in itself – you can imagine the stories of “who TF are you to be telling people to do the hard things when you won’t even get your fucking ass out of bed and make ONE social media post?! What kind of human even are you?!” oooph you guys it was ROUGH).<\/p>\n\n\n\n Then – just like magick – everything started to shift. I started waking up with more energy. Not every day – but some of the days. Those days, I celebrated! The other days, I rested with gratitude. I softened my ego out of the hustle energy and allowed myself to just BE in whatever energy was coming at the moment. I realized that in the previous year I had fallen victim to my old mentality of ego and hustle, that I had fallen victim to relationship patterns that didn’t serve me, that I had fallen victim to coaches and mentors that were not aligned – I had lost my voice, I \ufeffhad lost my boundaries, I had lost my power, I had lost my knowing. And THIS is why the void hit me so deep and so hard. It needed to strip away everything – and I mean quite literally EVERYTHING – that I had inadvertently absorbed as “me”. As the fog cleared and I slowly came back into myself, another layer of shifting happened. As I remembered my boundaries, and my power, a few things that the universe had left in my space started to bug me. Started to irritate me. Started to enrage me. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Soon I was the Queen of Swords relentlessly cutting away things of my own free will. Whatever did not serve, I was getting rid of it. Clothings, products, identities, people, you name it! The fire was back in my belly. I could see so clearly all the ways I had lost myself over the previous year and quite frankly, it made me fucking mad. <\/p>\n\n\n\n I spent much of April, May, and June processing deep levels of rage. Anger. Abandonment. Grief. Fear. This alchemization by fire that happens at the end of the void journey – burning away all the last remnants of the person I had become so I could step into the person I came here to be. <\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n \ufeffThat person honestly, truly showed up for me while I was on the road. Traveling to the red carpet in LA, flying to visit my family for my father’s memorial and speaking on stage in Winnipeg, and going to Tallinn for my very first Mindvalley Conference. <\/p>\n\n\n\n This time transformed me. Not all at once, but slowly. Each interaction with a new glorious human reminding me of my mission, my vision, my purpose, my pleasure. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Reminding me of how beautiful this world is, giving me vitality and energy back, and lighting a fire under my ass like I have never experienced before. <\/p>\n\n\n\n When I came back from Tallin I could’t WAIT to re-launch the Stephanie Jaie brand. It was coursing through my veins and so palpable that there were many nights I \ufeffhonestly didn’t sleep at all. <\/p>\n\n\n\n In short – I am back, baby. And back in a more powerful, more integrated, and more grounded way than I ever have been before. More ME than ever before. And it feels goooooood. <\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n This void, and the trip following immediately afterwards completely changed my life. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Divine timing at it’s finest. <\/p>\n\n\n\n I’m literally tearing up as I write this to you because my heart is SO full of gratitude for the magic that was on the other side of this void, and the lessons (albeit hard ones) that were within it. <\/p>\n\n\n\n The truth is I preach radical responsibility on a daily basis – and I had not been taking that for myself. This void was showing me that loud and clear. And brought me back into integrity with myself. <\/p>\n\n\n\n The universe speaks to me so much more clearly now; unencumbered by the voices and opinions of others (my ego included). When she speaks, I fucking listen. <\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n And she has told me so fucking clearly: THIS IS YOUR DHARMA. You’re here to shake shit up! \ufeff<\/p>\n\n\n\n You don’t fit into spiritual communities because they value harmony over authenticity and bitch you’re not here for harmony. You’re here to shine light on the shadows of sexuality, to empower humans to come back to their divinity using this sacred energy, and you can’t fucking do that if you’re trying to be somebody else. <\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Stop hiding behind the shadow of others, stop hiding behind the fear of judgement, stop hiding behind the resistance of “too much work”.<\/p>\n\n\n\n When you do this work, it will light you up. <\/p>\n\n\n\n It is your dharma – it’s why you’re here – and it’s the ONLY thing you can do now. <\/p>\n\n\n\n It is time to live your dharma. <\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n It’s time to start showing up for YOU. Because when you show up for YOU – everyone will notice, and your impact will ripple through the planet. <\/p>\n\n\n\n And, my loves, isn’t that exactly what has been happening? <\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n For those of you who feel that you might be in a void <\/span> <\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n What Comes Next? <\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n\n\n\n Well, baby – it’s shake shit up time! And what better time to do that than during my OWN favourite astrological time of year: LEO SEASON! <\/p>\n\n\n\n Divine timing once again, am I right?! <\/p>\n\n\n\n To celebrate the return of my energy, vitality, and DHARMA in life to normalize and catalyze pleasure embodiment and sexual energy in this world; I have been divinely guided to create SIX (yes – 6!) offers for you all that will be available throughout the Leo Season (look at that shift from taking 7 days to make ONE blog post to taking 3 weeks to make SIX courses! It’s fucking mind blowing ya’ll)<\/p>\n\n\n\n Available Now<\/strong> (and on sale till Aug 8)<\/p>\n\n\n\n Fluorescence:<\/strong> 3 Month Tantric Transformation<\/strong> <\/a>(yeah baby my epic 1:1 containers are BACK!) July 25th<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Extravagance: Venus in Leo Retrograde Workshop<\/a><\/strong> released – fully digital workshop <\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n August 1st<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Magnetic: Energetics of Attraction<\/strong> – fully digital mini-course is released (link available when doors open)<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n August 8th<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n
How It All Started <\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
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\ufeffBecause these things WEREN’T ME. And I needed to come back to ME. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I couldn’t WAIT to share with you my learnings.
I couldn’t WAIT to build courses, and show up on live, to build community, to connect, to shine. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pleasure embodiment.
Being the weird one.
Being the luxurious one.
Being the royal one.
Being the sexual one.
Being the taboo one.
Being the loud one.
Being the abrasive one.
Being the rebellious one. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Know that this is a time of surrender and trust. Like being in the womb, there’s no way to know up or down, no way to know when it will end – but trust that the rebirthing that happens on the other side will be more magickal and beautiful than anything you could have ever imagined. Know that the things that fall away are falling away for a reason. Give yourself permission to grieve, my loves. Give yourself permission to FEEL. To experience, to BE. This is the only way through. It is painful, I know. And if you ever need support, feel free to hit me up on Instagram @StephanieJaie. I’m here for you. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Here is what you can expect for this Leo Season & the relaunch of the Stephanie Jaie brand: <\/span><\/p>\n\n\n\n
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